For many years now I've sat under the stars at night; thinking of what it would be like to feel understood. It's probably common for people to not care about being understood at a depth that leaves few barriers to their own vulnerable state. Yea, I know there are reasons to protect from those who are willing to misuse the ability to see what lies beneath all the protective standards we have to implement to survive. It's unavoidable in this life to meet others who are malicious and who cannot distinguish between their own self destructive energy and their actual ability to be in life content. Somehow though, believeing that out of all the people on this earth there is only one that will open up the rough exterior designed by the need to survive is driving me toward the feeling of being alone. I can't be the only one. Yes , it has hurt me many times; being open toward others I've met. Strangers who put on their best skills to gain trust. Only to slide in and look around to gauge what they can gain. Never cared for those people. I'm 47 years old now. I'm conditioned by repeated pummeling by people's greed and shallow effort in being truly alive. It's in the core of our souls to love. The more it is buried underneath our ignorance the more we suffer from it's absence. This truth compels me to search for you. You are out there, feeling the same as I do. You know opening the conditions of ignorance will allow you to express the love within you. The core of your soul needs to be appreciated. Recognized and welcomed. Just like me.